The Last Chapter

I just got off the phone with Hospice and we are down to the last days, perhaps hours.

I am so torn.....

When we last visited face to face, I shared with her that I had been invited to speak at our annual convention to a group participating in the trainer's program for excellence.  This is the highlight of my career with this company and something that I put on my 'dream-board' last year.  It's happening.  I explained to her that this was such an incredible honor and something I've worked for but that I would not go if it meant that I would miss being with her when she needed.  Long story shorter, she and I agreed that I would go and that she'd try and not die while I was gone.

She's been non-responsive for 36 hours now. No one can give a "time frame" but it's close.

I don't care about how much preparatory grief someone goes through - it still hurts and feels  like my soul is being being sliced with razors.  I hate this and I want it to be over soon.

Comments

[Lisa]

Dora, I'm so sorry that your friend and you, by extension are going through this. I hope that both of you will have some peace soon.

[Anvilcloud]

It's such a hard time. In my experience they always leave before their hearts stop beating. Peace.

[NYTM]

It doesn't mater if it's a split second, weeks, months or years.. it's not easier, it's just different.

[Becky]

Dora,

My words seem so insignificant right now. My heart has felt the pain that you are feeling. My thoughts continue to go out to you in the hopes that you are able to be at ease with whatever may lay ahead. May your friend have a peaceful journey to the other side. She has been blessed by something so precious. You! Your friendship, your dedication to her, and your love that you share with her are things that will help her as she slips away. Please know that you will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers in the upcoming days-weeks. May you feel the Lord's hands holding yours every step of the way.
Much love,
Becky