I'm home from the visitation where I hugged and sniffled with people who love her too. When I first got there, before I went inside, I felt like my chest was going to explode. I called MusicMan on the phone and asked for a pep-talk. He said, you'll laugh and you'll cry and once you get past the first 40 seconds, you'll be fine.
He was right.
It was so heart warming to see people that we graduated with and haven't seen since and then those who we've remained in touch with. I saw teachers and counselors from high school and it was so gratifying to have them see what we all have "become" and talk of old times.
There were tears and laughs and lots and lots of hugs and 'remember when....'
Several of us are getting together for drinks in a while to gather and remember someone who touched us all in various but profound ways. I feel an increased sense of joy and lightheartedness today. The funeral will have difficult moments but after that - I'm going home to the loving arms of my husband.
One thing I've learned through all of this is that I don't like being away from my family for two weeks.