As with any blog owner - I sometimes struggle with the topics of conversations that I will post here. I value the participation and input from those whose opinions I value. Sometimes I agree with the comments and suggestions and sometimes I do not. One thing continues to be certain though - they always make me think and I always appreciate the time and energy that goes into sharing your thoughts and comments.I have never aspired to be a blog owner who has thousands of hits each day. I don't want to deal with the obligation that I would place upon myself to live up to that kind of responsibility. I'm not nervous with the reality that people around me can read into my private thoughts or that people who I'm dealing with in real life may read about my perceptions of our dealings on here. I have always maintained my commitment to be honest and fair in what I say here about myself and others.
I admit that I was a bit nervous when I discovered that Big Sister was reading about the way that I met The Bouncer but as it has turned out - it was and continues to be a very positive thing that I was able to share those memories with her. She never knew of the good times that I shared with him. I would be uncomfortable to know that he reads this blog - not because I have anything to hide but because I don't want him in my life on such a personal level. Isn't that interesting that I don't have any difficulty whatsoever with a complete stranger reading my experiences and opinions and thoughts but I don't want a man that I was married to for 13 years being that close on the inside of my head? the way I see it - he forfeited the right to my personal thoughts and intimate feelings when he made the choices that he did over 12 years ago. I prefer to keep a respectful space - including him having access to my thoughts and feelings. Still, he is part of my life and my past and he gets put in here sometimes.
I guess you could say that Life's Laundry is a clothesline that holds various topics of clothing. None of the clothing necessarily matches except to say that it's all held together by the common clothespin - - - me.
I don't want this to be my "business blog" but my business is part of who I am - so it gets put in here sometimes. [side note: I have long tinkered with the idea of beginning a motivationall business blog because I have a passion for helping others discover their inner value and I don't know why I haven't fully committed to that project yet either.] I don't want this to be all about my African Violet blog - but it's part of who I am so it gets put in here sometimes. I don't want it to be all about politics - cause Lord knows we are choking on enough of that already but this year, it is part of who I am and it's been put in here. (I appreciate your patience while I waded through the process and shared some of my involvement with people and events. This time next week, we will know how it turns out and we'll be moving on to the next phase. My kids don't control my life and I'm not someone that I consider a helicopter mom....but they are part of my life and they get put in here. Sometimes I face challenges of having four kids - a Sr in college, a Sr in high school, a six year old son with some social challenges and a precocious four year old who keeps me on my toes...but then again, those are parts of who I am so they get put into this blog. Sometimes I write and reflect on spirituality and how it relates to religion and my own personal journey. Sometimes I like to brag on MusicMan and how proud I am of his talent and perhaps more importantly - how much I continue to adore him and the way he loves me unconditionally. I like sharing how our property continues to transform through the landscaping and how much fun I have in watching the transformations in our home and in the lives of those who live and love here.
But perhaps most of all - I like to share about how all this relates to me and how it effects and affects me. Is that self centered? Or just really the purpose of personal blogs like Life's Laundry? I have found myself holding back a bit sometimes because I don't want to appear to be too boastful....so I try to scale it back a bit.
What I want to know now....is........ what do you enjoy hearing the most about? What keeps bringing you back to look and see? Is it habit or boredom? What interest you the most and makes the time that you spend here worth it?